I make no regrets for the man I am for in doing so I would question the foundation upon which I stand. A foundation built of steel resilience nailed together with the suffering I've endured. The rust may discolor my surface and reveal the mistakes I've made but when I take a step back and gaze in full view at all I've accomplished under such monumental stress, I gaze in awe. It is n that moment of self appreciation I truly recognize the legacy of what I've accomplished and and realize the potential of what I still can do...
:-)
oh yeah!
Monday, January 26, 2009
The Truth
The faces I make help me mask my pain
facades they're called in the games we play
I've got people fooled, they don't notice a thing
but I can't deceive myself, I still feel the sting.
My eyes bleed tears no one else sees
But my lips taste the pain of this false glee
Then there's that lump in my throat I always feel
The seed of guilt that springs from the truth I conceal
I know that smiles I give off are lies
and the more poison I swallow the more my soul dies
facades they're called in the games we play
I've got people fooled, they don't notice a thing
but I can't deceive myself, I still feel the sting.
My eyes bleed tears no one else sees
But my lips taste the pain of this false glee
Then there's that lump in my throat I always feel
The seed of guilt that springs from the truth I conceal
I know that smiles I give off are lies
and the more poison I swallow the more my soul dies
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Darkness Falls
Title has nothing to do with the movie, never saw it and don't want to.
I like darkness, I like being immersed in it.
Its soothing and it relaxes me a lot.
But it also makes me sad.
Double edged sword.
Bittersweet.
Dark.
I like darkness, I like being immersed in it.
Its soothing and it relaxes me a lot.
But it also makes me sad.
Double edged sword.
Bittersweet.
Dark.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Bailing Out The Big Three
Okay, so basically, we left off at November...which is now. As for everything else, its only deteriorated and no sign of relief is coming anytime soon. Fortunately however, or should i say unfortunately, a new crisis has developed. After the bank bailout crisis (to which i forgot to add AIG which has also recieved about $50-100 Billion), it seems now that the Auto Industry wants a handout too! The American Big Three: General Motors, Chrysler and Ford have been around now for decades but it seems that the current turn of events has put them on the precipace of failure. Especially GM, who claims that it might not have enough cash on hand to last through the year and certainly not enough to last past Q1 of 2009. Chrysler too is worried and it aswell has stated that by mid 2009, without help it may very well be long gone too. Ford is still surviving, but its downward spiral is only intensifying and it too doubts that it'll be able to make it to 2010 if it doesn't get some help.
Economic Meltdown - American Style!
Should we bail out the big 3? GM is obviously about dead. Chrysler's on life support and Ford is like the old man awaiting the inevitable. But before we answer that, here's a recap: after blowing huge chunks of money in the late 90s and early 2000s and structuring its production around gas guzzling SUV and other gas-nightmares, GM hit a snag in 2006 when people started feeling the gas pinch. Soon thereafter, people stopped buying GM monster-trucks and began to pursue more lucrative foreign cars such as Toyota (which recently became the world's number 1 automaker) and Honda. Meanwhile, gas guzzlers in the American Big Three (Ford, Chrysler and GM) soon found themselves without an impressive sales report and knew that they would all soon be running into the red. Flash-forward to 2007. 
Amid the impending doom of the bursting of the Housing bubble and the ever increasing number of home foreclosures (oh! lets not forget the credit crunch- yeah, that piece of plastic people actually forgot represented money) the economy began to slump. This, along with the actual rising rates from adjustable rate mortgages and the lack of cash on hand, sparked a fear in people - a fear associated with making any purchases over fifty dollars or anything long term. Anything say, like a car. Perhaps things would have smoothed out, but life had a different plan and as the markets tumbled into 2008, unemployment rose (now by 6.5%), foreclosure's skyrocketed (into the millions) and more and more people were now going on unemployment benefits (over 500,000 in Oct.). *sigh, well now we can move onto September 2008. Basically at this point the country was on the verge of a breakdown. Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac were about to go under and needed to be saved. Jobs were being slashed from major companies left and right, there was no relief from the housing crisis and it was obvious to everyone that the country was in a bad recession. 
GM, Ford and Chrysler had all posted sharp losses and continued to scale back production among other things to free up some capitol. Soon we reached October, where we witnessed the fall of American giants when it came to financial institutions. Since virtually all of them were facing severe crises and threatening to drain the FDIC of its funds, the Treasury department decided to ask some companies to merge in order to save itself. Bank of America, still reeling from the acquisition of Countrywide financial now was asked to purchase Merrill Lynch for nothing. Washington Mutual was seized by the government OIC and went through the FDIC, causing the largest bank failure in US history. What was left of it was sold to JP Morgan. Finally, Wachovia about to go under was bought out by Wells Fargo. That left the unfortunate Lehman Brothers which closed since no one wanted to acquire it (and most of the workers were subsequently laid off). Congress then passed (alebit not without failed attempts and drama) the Emergency Economic Stabilization act (1o/3) was passed loaning the Treasury department $700 Billion for their Troubled Assets Relief Program (TARP) to loan out to Banks in hopes that they would lend money out...something which has yet to happen. Okay this is too long so im splitting it up, part II coming up!
Amid the impending doom of the bursting of the Housing bubble and the ever increasing number of home foreclosures (oh! lets not forget the credit crunch- yeah, that piece of plastic people actually forgot represented money) the economy began to slump. This, along with the actual rising rates from adjustable rate mortgages and the lack of cash on hand, sparked a fear in people - a fear associated with making any purchases over fifty dollars or anything long term. Anything say, like a car. Perhaps things would have smoothed out, but life had a different plan and as the markets tumbled into 2008, unemployment rose (now by 6.5%), foreclosure's skyrocketed (into the millions) and more and more people were now going on unemployment benefits (over 500,000 in Oct.). *sigh, well now we can move onto September 2008. Basically at this point the country was on the verge of a breakdown. Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac were about to go under and needed to be saved. Jobs were being slashed from major companies left and right, there was no relief from the housing crisis and it was obvious to everyone that the country was in a bad recession. 
GM, Ford and Chrysler had all posted sharp losses and continued to scale back production among other things to free up some capitol. Soon we reached October, where we witnessed the fall of American giants when it came to financial institutions. Since virtually all of them were facing severe crises and threatening to drain the FDIC of its funds, the Treasury department decided to ask some companies to merge in order to save itself. Bank of America, still reeling from the acquisition of Countrywide financial now was asked to purchase Merrill Lynch for nothing. Washington Mutual was seized by the government OIC and went through the FDIC, causing the largest bank failure in US history. What was left of it was sold to JP Morgan. Finally, Wachovia about to go under was bought out by Wells Fargo. That left the unfortunate Lehman Brothers which closed since no one wanted to acquire it (and most of the workers were subsequently laid off). Congress then passed (alebit not without failed attempts and drama) the Emergency Economic Stabilization act (1o/3) was passed loaning the Treasury department $700 Billion for their Troubled Assets Relief Program (TARP) to loan out to Banks in hopes that they would lend money out...something which has yet to happen. Okay this is too long so im splitting it up, part II coming up!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
BTW......
BTW... i just wanted to clarify that this isn't one of those cheesy "The Patty Family Blog" things where I post pictures of people you DON'T know and DON'T really care about. Nor is this a blog with some existential (but not) title like "The Rambling of Lonely Boy from New Zealand" where I write about the plant my cousin just planted or how my aunt's coming over, again. See thats also IRRELEVANT to you and that's why it wont be here! So in case your wondering what this blog is about, well, its about a 20 year old college scruff who i just (a little) angry and happens to be the only sane one in a city populated with FOOLS! And yes, i will wallow in my sorrow thank you very much. But im also humorous and zany with a dash of witty....kinda like V from V for Vendetta (thats a lot of Vs...now its even more).
So all in all, my blog is awesome, about as awesome as the rightous moss growing above my lips that is a gift from god (im talking about my stash man!) and with thats!FJKSDDSKFHNSDKFHKA!
there, how's that for goodbye!
lolz,
ishi
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Don't Know Who Won??? Been Living Under a Rock?
DEMOCRATA!
The 2008 Presidential Election IS OVER!
(about damn time!)
The 2008 Presidential Election IS OVER!
(about damn time!)
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